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A Spiritual Journey (TM)

This is the first in a series of steps I took in my spiritual journey. I pray you gain tremendous insight into the spirit realm as I take you through the years on the journey that would, one day, end at the throne of God.


Back in the early 1990s, I went on a spiritual journey few people ever do. I was searching for answers, why not spread the net as wide as possible and drop it into the deepest part of the sea? I explored all major world religions, many philosophies, and some cults. When I started, I had a clear plan — explore, explore, explore and leave the Bible last.

I wanted nothing to do with the God of the Bible because I thought He hated me and was doing everything in His power to make my life a living Hell. My childhood was pretty rough on a few different levels and, because I was raised in church, I was taught that God punished sinners and I reasoned that He really must see me as a horrible sinner if my life is like it is. Mind you, some God/god (whoever it was) had already saved my life twice up to this point in my life (fell asleep at the wheel and anaphylactic shock) and it most certainly could not be the same one who showed such hate to me, right? Why would a God/god save the life of someone He hated/who hated Him?

At one point in my journey, I met a mysterious artist at the local mall. Her work grabbed my attention as I stood mesmerized by one of her Native American paintings of a shaman contacting an ancestor spirit through a fire. As we spoke deeply about my ancestry, she told me about transcendental meditation and I thought, ‘What the heck?’ and justified it with the idea, ‘If my ancestors did it, why can’t I?’

I am part Shawnee (Native American) and I eagerly learned about the meditative traditions of some Native Americans and how they summoned spirits, but that didn’t resonate with me. I wanted to be the captain of my ship and I was going to figure out how to do so. I had a deep inner cry that led me to believe there was greatness within me and I was going to do whatever it took to get it out.

I loved the idea of being in charge and using “the power of the universe” to guide me along my life’s path. Does that sound New Age-y enough to you? Many people in the world undertake the Hindu/New Age journey because, on the surface, it seems to be accessible, straight forward, and chock full of potential breakthroughs acquired at whatever pace I would choose to take - as opposed to trying to win the favor of the fickle and vicious God (or so I thought) of the Bible.

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I threw myself into transcendental meditation thinking this would be the channel I needed to tune into to understand who and what I am and discover the ‘why’s behind life’s roller coaster ups and downs. I was so excited to learn about my motivations and escape the world whenever I felt the need. If a higher consciousness was what I needed, it was a higher consciousness I was going to get.

I was so ready and willing to jump in, I devoured a single chapter of a book on meditation and got started immediately. I reasoned that I’d figure it out as I go. I’m a genius, for Pete’s sake. It’s not like this could be very difficult. ‘I’ll learn on the fly,’ I reasoned. ‘I’m a natural artist, so I’ll let my imagination and intuition guide me,’ I concluded so as to ply myself with the confident attitude I felt I needed.

As the days flew by, and I logged hundreds of hours in meditation, I discovered better methods and ways of focusing my attention and weeding out thoughts and distractions. My initial theories proved me correct. I got to be very good. If there was a meditation studio, I would have taught classes. I was right in tune and I could drop into a trance at the closing of my eyes.

Many months later, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, left my body, and dropped into my regular place in that black room somewhere in the spirit world. All of a sudden, as I was about to completely relax, a big, ferocious, ugly demon with horns and thick, sharp teeth came at me. I freaked out and backed out of that black room as quickly as I could so I could return to my body.

As you might have guessed, that was the last time I would ever do any sort of transcendental meditation or any type of unholy meditation at all.

If you truly want to seek enlightenment and the type of permanent inner peace the world simply cannot offer, let me be abundantly clear here: the inner peace we’re truly seeking is peace between ourselves and Father God. Jesus is the Prince of Peace. Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation. Day after day, you will continue to find all you need resides in God’s abundant love. Seek the answers in God and He will never disappoint.

For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
7 Of the greatness of his government and peace
there will be no end.
— Isaiah 9:6-7a

As you have just read, by engaging in transcendental meditation (TM), many people have pierced themselves with many pains by opening the door for the devil to come and steal, kill, and destroy. If you have been involved in TM, you will want to repent of, renounce, and reject doing it and any gain you might have gotten from it as well as breaking off all demonic soul ties and spirit guides that might have attached themselves to you in the process.


Prayer

Father God, I acknowledge You as the one, true God and I repent of, renounce, and reject the pagan belief system of Hinduism and its monastic ‘technology’ of transcendental meditation and all cultic worship of demons and all unholy soul ties with human beings and demons associated with it. I come before you in apology for having sought to empty myself of all mind and soul and asking a demon to help me make a way through life. You, Lord Jesus, are the Way and I choose to completely follow You from now on. Search my heart and soul and see if there is any offensive way in me and expose these things in the light of your glory and grace. I repent of, renounce, and reject and break all vows I made to those demons and for using TM to gain what only You can truly give me. I receive Your Fatherly love now. Fill me to overflowing with Your Holy Spirit and lead me in the Way everlasting. In Jesus’ mighty name I pray, amen.


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